I'm Doing Well! Or Am I??
- evennow
- 4 days ago
- 6 min read
As humans, we all have this tendency to 'normalise'. We also usually think that we are doing something quite well if we are putting or have already put some effort into it. But when you apply a little scientific method and you start measuring your 'now' values and comparing them with 'desired' values, this can be a real eye opener.
I had the first such eye opener in 2019 when I received my breast cancer diagnosis. I thought that I had done quite a lot of inner work already, and surely I would not get cancer - or would I? It was indeed the best kick up the backside to start looking inside, but this time to look really hard and be honest, so that I could start healing myself. Since then, I have focused on the mind and soul side of things, and concentrated on creating a state of homeostasis in my system, as I have described on my homepage and in several other blog posts. And although I am very proud of all that I have already achieved for my own health, I also have to admit that I have omitted two very important parts of my healing: my physical body and my emotional body.
Here is the story of how I found something new that really works for me.
Putting It to the Test
A few weeks ago, I came across the Human Garage Wellness Assessment, which does a wonderfully thorough all-round evaluation across six key areas of health and wellbeing. When I saw my results, I have to say I had one of those moments. You know the kind - the ones where you cannot argue with what is staring back at you.
My Mental score came in at 88% - Thriving - and honestly, that did not surprise me, because the mental and spiritual work has been my absolute focus for the last decade. PSYCH-K®, hypnotherapy, reading, reflection, inner journeying, all of it has been paying off, and I feel deeply grateful that I can see that so clearly reflected in the numbers.
But the rest of the chart told a different story, and it told it honestly. My Emotional score showed up at 35% - Needs Support - and my Physical score at 45% - Developing. And while the assessment also highlighted several other areas that I had been quietly neglecting and that will now absolutely get more attention over time, these two results in particular stopped me in my tracks. The mind, bless it, has been working beautifully. But the body and the emotional body? They have been rather patiently waiting in the queue.
What I found so valuable about taking this assessment is that it reminded me, in the most matter-of-fact and compassionate way, that you can be doing brilliantly in one area of your health while other areas are still calling out to be seen. I already knew this intellectually, it is, after all, at the heart of everything I teach, but there is something quite different about seeing your own chart and having to be honest about it.
One would always want to do and achieve everything right now, but that is simply not possible. We can only do one thing at a time, and right now, the thing I am choosing to focus on is something I discovered through a completely unexpected conversation.
A Podcast, a Colleague, and a Rather Extraordinary Guest
It started with a catch-up with an old colleague from my hotel days. We were talking about health and all its many facets, and he wanted to introduce me to Dr Rajan Chatterjee's podcast - except that I already knew Rajan, so that part was not quite the discovery my colleague had in mind. What did stop me in my tracks, however, was his guest: Jason van Blerk.
Jason is the co-founder of Human Garage and the creator of what he calls Fascial Manoeuvres, and the way he described fascia had me almost spellbound. I will go into much more detail about what fascia actually is in my next post, because it deserves a proper explanation, but let me tell you what happened to me when I heard him speak.
It was one of those moments that I usually only have when I am reading a book and I simply know, deep inside, that what I am reading is true. Anyone who has ever picked up a piece of spiritual literature will recognise that feeling, the one where something lands not just in your mind but in your whole being. Here I had it for the very first time while listening to an interview. I knew that what Jason was saying was true. And being me, there was only one possible next step: I had to try it.
Three Weeks In
I never recommend anything that I have not tried myself first, so here we are, three weeks into the Fascial Manoeuvres, and I can only say: try this. But let me tell you what happened when I did.
Jason explains that fascia is essentially the organ that holds everything together - the water in the body, the organs, the muscles, the nerves - and that it also stores energy and, crucially, emotions. And that last part is what I want to tell you about today.
I have always known that our system stores unresolved emotions 'somewhere'. For the last ten years I have worked on dissolving and balancing that stored energy through hypnotherapy and PSYCH-K®, and as the chart above shows, it has been very successful on the mental level. But emotionally and in my body? Not so fit yet. So when I tried the Fascial Manoeuvres for the very first time and did what is called an organ reset, an emotional wave of fear came over me and I cried like the child that I was when I first experienced that fear.
It was an extraordinary moment. I could truly feel the reality and the actuality of that emotion, and at the same time I observed myself with complete fascination, because I had finally found a modality that works for me at this level. The simple fact that emotions released during that first organ reset told me clearly that there is still a great deal of work to be done here, and I welcomed that knowledge. It is so important that the body learns gently that it is safe to let these emotions go, and that it also gets to experience the new reality. In my case, the reality that I am safe. This comes, as it does in hypnotherapy and in any habit-change modality, through repetition. Regular, patient, gentle repetition.
And after three weeks, I can already feel a change setting in. I sleep better. I no longer wake during the night. And I feel what I can only describe as 'stronger'; not stronger in the physical sense, but stronger in the sense of being confident to stand up for myself and for my emotions. It is a strange and beautiful feeling, and one that I have waited for for a very long time.
In my next post, I will explain what fascia actually is, what Jason van Blerk has to say about it that is so compelling, and I will share the two videos that I started with so that you can try it for yourself if you feel called to.
In the meantime, I would love to hear from you. Have you ever had that experience of 'knowing' something is true the moment you hear it? And what is your relationship with your body's ability to store and release emotions? Let me know in the comments below, or come and find me, I am always happy to talk.
Love and light,
Tanya
PS: I find that my healing journey is constantly evolving, and over the years and decades I have discovered and tried and tested so many different modalities that I can't even remember them all. The most important thing about it for me is, that life evolves, I evolve, my health evolves, and I can only do whatever I can to make it better - myself, my life, my health, it is all an ongoing quest!
PPS: I am not affiliated with Human Garage, I only share what I found out and liked.
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