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I have always believed that I was doing quite well on my healing journey. I have put in the work, year after year, and I have the mental results to prove it. But when I took the Human Garage Wellness Assessment and then discovered fascial manoeuvres through a podcast that stopped me in my tracks, I had to be honest with myself about the two areas I had been quietly neglecting: my body and my emotional body. This is the story of what I found.

It's 4am, I can't sleep, and I'm checking World Cup fixture lists. I have Finnish and German heritage, a Scottish partner from Glasgow, and I live in England. Backing just one team was never really an option. Pull up a chair, this could take a while.

When golfer Aaron Rai spoke about his childhood dream of playing on the PGA Tour, something broke open in me. Because I realised I had never had that kind of fire. I meandered, I existed, I functioned. Fear ran my life for decades - fear of being seen, of being heard, of making mistakes. But something has shifted. For the first time, I have dreams. Real ones. And it turns out it is never too late to find them. No matter your age, your history, or how long you spent hiding. Yo

In 2019, I lost my hair to chemotherapy and fell in love with my bald head. What followed — a mystical night, an 18-year anniversary, and a discovery about the album my father played on repeat before he died - changed everything. This is where the wound ends and the rebirth begins. And this is where I finally, fully arrived at myself.

It started in the middle of the night — a feeling that today might be significant. That today might be the day I had lived exactly as many days as my father did in his entire life. So I asked AI to calculate it. What I found sent me on a journey I wasn't expecting.